Dirt Road Anthem - Freds Goodbye

When you're reading this, I want you to listen to this song, and think of all the good times we had, the golden days, the HL2DM servers, the laughs, everything that is, or was good about mR. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJ5IIDn_JXE

I was talking to Phantom today, it was a heart to heart kind of thing. We talked about a lot of things, like the good days (The Golden Days of mR [If you don't know what they are then you weren't in the real mR]). Remember cscdesert? Freespace? Hometown? God **** those were good times. I remember Michael telling me a while after I became a member that when I first joined the server as **** U, he had his hand on the banhammer haha...Im glad I proved you wrong Michael, if you can call that proving you wrong hahaha....
I was happier than a **** with Silly Putty when Mark invited me to mR, because I felt I was accepted by the family. I felt like I had a second family and yeah I had one, with all of you old mRs. I remember the horrible times, what was that like almost 2 years ago? When we were struggling to keep our servers running, Mike was gone, and Worst was holding it all together with the help of LB, and Bix. Man we sure found out who the real mRs were then. The ones who actually cared about the clan.
I wish I could say I'm proud of the tag, and for the longest time I was. Up until recently Id fight like an irishman who's wife just got insulted if people were talking badly about mR. That was when I thought our clan still gave two shits about our clan members, but now we fucked up. We fucked up bad. God ****, do you realize how much **** we put Phantom through? The kid joined mR hoping, like me, that he had found a second family but what did he get? He got **** on. **** ON by mR's like me who thought it was funny to **** with him, demean him.
He told me that a little while back he came on TS after he left the clan, and everyone on there shat on him, saying that "He betrayed us" that he was "brainwashed"? What is that, the kid got **** on for 3 years at least, and he's "brainwashed" for getting away from the horrid abuse we put him through? I think we're all brainwashed, brainwashed into being a clique, a clique that "trolls" people for being different. You know what thats called, thats called discrimination, and it is one fucked up thing.
Im not trying in anyway to say that Im a saint, I put Phantom through a lot of abuse, and I mean...a lot. But I never tried to kill him by using some kind of epilepsy inducing script on him. Thats pure hatred right there, or as you guys like to say "trolling". I don't know why Im writing all of this, I should just say "Hey, **** you guys, Im leaving" but I feel like I deserve a formal goodbye to you.
I was so god damned convinced that when Mike came back, everything would be amazing, that mIKe the Arc Angel, would swoop down and everything would revert to the golden days, was I mistaken or what.
Everyone that was put in a seat of power after that, iCruch, Davis, Lladar, has fucked up. iCruch was a piece of ****, who thought he was god and fucked up the forums, thank god we had back ups, Davis fucked up the forums as well and FTP if Im not mistaken, and Lladar, you hate, you **** hate.
You've got Mike eating out of the palm of your hand because you're paying for the box. You get to pick and choose who you feel like shitting on today after you've had the twelve layer burrito. Whoever you want perma'd, you get Mike to do it, I've heard on several occasions by a couple different people, like John, and Phantom.
Oh yeah, and lets not forget Sniffles, coming back acting like he's changed and everything, which is ****, seeing as how you got John perma'd by whining to Lladar after he pissed you off. Thats fucked up, but you've always been two faced, haven't you.
I dont know if anyone's going to take a hint from this that maybe, just maybe you need to get back to mR's roots, my guess is you're not. I dont care though, Im done with all of you, and your massive amount of bull/horse ****. Anyone wants to hate on me, go ahead and message me on Steam, or if you just feel like removing me from your friends list, then I guess you really weren't my friend, were you. I mean ****, it's not like I treated all of you with respect for the past 5 years of my life. Well, this is a goodbye for those who I still respect in this clan, I shall name them now.

Markus, Shadew, Worstypoo, Roseycakes, Phoenix The Irish, Milo, Ghosty, Star, Vidster, Minkeh, IOA, Dan The Pants, Blazeypoo, Easymark, Branford The Shortbus, Tronald, Babeboom The Norwegian, Sammypants, Towelhead,(Edit) Madman (There may be a few more that I did not mention here, there are some who Im unsure if they left the clan or not.)

I wish to have my clan status removed, and to be perma banned from anything that involves mR. That way you dont have to see me again. Good bye, I love, and I will miss you all, even those who have been mentioned dishonorably.

As my last request I'd like everyone to thank Mark for everything he's done for mR. We wouldnt have had much of a server without him.

All your base r belong to mR

I understand your decision to leave.
Goodbye Fred, we've had some good times back on the build server.

Any information about us that you've received from John is false... he was banned because he griefed and trolled mIKe. Nuff said. I can't even believe you'd believe a word that come out of that kids mouth. He's always been a lying ****.

I also take offence to this statement:
"Lladar, you hate, you **** hate.
You've got Mike eating out of the palm of your hand because you're paying for the box. You get to pick and choose who you feel like shitting on today after you've had the twelve layer burrito. Whoever you want perma'd, you get Mike to do it, I've heard on several occasions by a couple different people, like John, and Phantom."

I used to pay for the box... Now I just accept donations from other members to pay for it.

There has only been one person I've hated, and that was John. I like Phantom, even though his voice is annoying and he's a compulsive liar. I agree we pick on him, but he is seriously over exaggerating. He came on today and we joked around together. Not sure where all this "we **** on him" came from. He likes attention, Fred.

I have always liked you Fred... but you rarely show your face around any part of mR so I'm not quite sure how you can make all these assertions about us... especially about me. That part hurt. In my whole time here you've maybe been on enough times I can count on a single hand. I'm a very active and contributing administrator of this community. I bust my **** all the time for you guys. But whatever, See ya around brother.

You obviously do not know me or mR history too well. You only know half the situation regarding Phantom. You're wrong about John. As a matter of fact Fred, about 75% of your post is not accurate.
Since you are willing to leave on a whim, and have no respect for me, I'm willing to let you go on about 10% actual relevant information.
Old remembers like yourself still have the same **** legacy problems, and that is lack of communication. You barely visit the site, you are never on team speak. You don't play on our servers. You really have no idea what is going on.
In my humble opinion, the more people like you leave the better we are off. Don't get me wrong, if you were active it'd be different.

Good bye Fred, I didn't know you that well, Wish I could have known you better.

I admit, I am being very hasty about what I am saying with the whole Phantom and John thing, but all the times that I have been on the server, with Phantom, we all have made fun of him, extremely badly. Im trying to stick up for my friends, and be honest about how I feel about the situation. I like you Lladar, I do, we've never had a problem, it's just that I've heard a lot from members, my friends, and ex-members about how you've treated them. Like John, Phantom, not much, but some from Blade (Project), and Shadow, but I guess the thing with Shadow is resolved. Mike, I respect you for making the clan and for the reason that you left. I am horrible with change, and I guess thats why I have to leave. The reason I dont join Teamspeak, or go on the forums so much, is that I was gone so long, when I was building my new computer and busy with other things that it changed so much, and was afraid that I wasn't welcome. I know that's **** and I really should've gone on anyway. Yes I am leaving on a whim, and as a matter of fact I am regretting this already, but I'm not going to beg to join again because that would be stupid and completely useless because of all the **** slinging I just did. I've wanted to talk to you about things of this nature for a while Mike, but I wanted it to be private, in Steam chat, but you're never on, and when you are on, you rarely answer messages. Which again, is stupid because I could've always gone on TS and asked to talk to you in Steam. Yeah, Im ****, and I really should've thought about this more before I did it, but you can't change the past.

I admit, I am being very hasty about what I am saying with the whole Phantom and John thing, but all the times that I have been on the server, with Phantom, we all have made fun of him, extremely badly. Im trying to stick up for my friends, and be honest about how I feel about the situation. I like you Lladar, I do, we've never had a problem, it's just that I've heard a lot from members, my friends, and ex-members about how you've treated them. Like John, Phantom, not much, but some from Blade (Project), and Shadow, but I guess the thing with Shadow is resolved. Mike, I respect you for making the clan and for the reason that you left. I am horrible with change, and I guess thats why I have to leave. The reason I dont join Teamspeak, or go on the forums so much, is that I was gone so long, when I was building my new computer and busy with other things that it changed so much, and was afraid that I wasn't welcome. I know that's **** and I really should've gone on anyway. Yes I am leaving on a whim, and as a matter of fact I am regretting this already, but I'm not going to beg to join again because that would be stupid and completely useless because of all the **** slinging I just did. I've wanted to talk to you about things of this nature for a while Mike, but I wanted it to be private, in Steam chat, but you're never on, and when you are on, you rarely answer messages. Which again, is stupid because I could've always gone on TS and asked to talk to you in Steam. Yeah, Im ****, and I really should've thought about this more before I did it, but you can't change the past.

I haven't changed your status yet. I'm glad you posted this thread ( you could have approaced it differently, ) cause now you are a little more clear on some things. If you want to stick around, and you are welcome to, we can fill you in on a lot of things going on. Steam is really the worst way to get ahold of me. Teamspeak is probably the best.

And for the record, mark RECODED the plugin, all the **** was originally coded my me. I have to clear that up every time its brought up, lol

Hey, old buddy, I respect your decision, but i have a few quams with your post.

I remember the horrible times, what was that like almost 2 years ago? When we were struggling to keep our servers running, Mike was gone, and Worst was holding it all together with the help of LB, and Bix. Man we sure found out who the real mRs were then. The ones who actually cared about the clan.

While Mike was AFK IRL, it was Worst and LB. B1x wasn't even an admin at that time and was hardcore into some writing/scripts for some moviemaking jazz that he never got around to.

He told me that a little while back he came on TS after he left the clan, and everyone on there shat on him, saying that "He betrayed us" that he was "brainwashed"? What is that, the kid got **** on for 3 years at least, and he's "brainwashed" for getting away from the horrid abuse we put him through? I think we're all brainwashed, brainwashed into being a clique, a clique that "trolls" people for being different. You know what thats called, thats called discrimination, and it is one fucked up thing.

While I won't deny that Phantom has been..."mistreated" at times, he sets himself up for it (I know that sounds insensitive, but its an honest fact :/). As for the recent hate on him, I suspect it's actually because the haters are jealous and hurt. No, I am not joking; they are hurt and they don't know how to handle it, so they project it though hurtful actions/words.

Everyone that was put in a seat of power after that, iCruch, Davis, Lladar, has fucked up. iCruch was a piece of ****, who thought he was god and fucked up the forums, thank god we had back ups, Davis fucked up the forums as well and FTP if Im not mistaken, and Lladar, you hate, you **** hate.

iCruch and Davis were both Paperthin's "creations". We have dealt with these errors, patched the cause, and have moved on. There isn't much sense dwelling on negative experiences, is there? As far as Lladar goes, you have to know him better in order to judge. I guarantee if you did, you'd love him (you two are a lot alike y'know)!

Oh yeah, and lets not forget Sniffles, coming back acting like he's changed and everything, which is ****, seeing as how you got John perma'd by whining to Lladar after he pissed you off. Thats fucked up, but you've always been two faced, haven't you.

Sniffles, while he IS back, is no longer part of the clan. However, since his return he hasn't done much but troll people who played into his neon-bright-obvious-trolling hands. We're not about to ban his community (not member) status for the syupidity of others. John, on the other hand, earned his ban. No matter what he says, he was the sole catalyst for his punishment. He received countless warnings and countless second-chances. After much (too much) intentional greifing of players and the servers, the Administrators decided unanimously that he was to be removed from the community. There is nothing more to it.

I wish to have my clan status removed, and to be perma banned from anything that involves mR. That way you dont have to see me again.

Your clan status will be determined by Mike, but banned status? On my grave, ****!

As my last request I'd like everyone to thank Mark for everything he's done for mR. We wouldnt have had much of a server without him.

I hope you know he wasn't the only coder!


All in all, you haven't been very active recently (on Teamspeak, the Servers, OR the forums), so I don't expect you to understand the "changes" (I'd call them transitions, not really changes) mR has gone through, but hey, coming back form your absence things have got to look different, right? Either way, I hope this isn't goodbye, but "see you soon".

Also..

Discriminate
dis·crim·i·nate
   /v. dɪˈskrɪməˌneɪt; adj. dɪˈskrɪmənɪt/ Show Spelled [v. dih-skrim-uh-neyt; adj. dih-skrim-uh-nit] Show IPA verb, -nat·ed, -nat·ing, adjective

–verb (used without object)
1.
to make a distinction in favor of or against a person or thing on the basis of the group, class, or category to which the person or thing belongs rather than according to actual merit; show partiality: The new law discriminates against foreigners. He discriminates in favor of his relatives.
2.
to note or observe a difference; distinguish accurately: to discriminate between things.

–verb (used with object)
3.
to make or constitute a distinction in or between; differentiate: a mark that discriminates the original from the copy.
4.
to note or distinguish as different: He can discriminate minute variations in tone.

–adjective
5.
marked by discrimination; making or evidencing nice distinctions: discriminate people; discriminate judgments.

OH **** SON, LOOKS LIKE **** HAS BEEN POSTED SINCE I STARTED TO TYPE THIS

I admit, I am being very hasty about what I am saying with the whole Phantom and John thing, but all the times that I have been on the server, with Phantom, we all have made fun of him, extremely badly.
...the rest of the post...
Yeah, Im ****, and I really should've thought about this more before I did it, but you can't change the past.

Well bro, hop on our Teamspeak some time and we can secure your insecurites (hint hint, nudge nudge, :P) and tell you everything you missed!

Dood...you have no idea how happy I am right now, I am a **** and really fucked up, thank you so much Mike. Its been hitting me more and more that John really isn't the most trustworthy person to talk too. Its pathetic really, its like 3 in the morning, and Phantom started talking all this stuff about how he was being abused in teamspeak,which I really dont like, and that brought on all the tiny little **** that different members that have left have told me, which (when you dont get both sides of the story [yeah Im a dumbass]) really makes someone look like a bad guy. I feel like an **** for abusing Phantom so much. Lladar, Im sorry for slinging ****. Really we've never had a problem and its the same idea as what I said above about the two sides. Dear god I must look like a massive **** right now...but I really dont care, because I made a huge mistake and shouldn't have posted this thread, or at least not like this. Um...can...someone close this thread since Im not leaving? (as long as its okay with Mike) ^^;

tl dr
Everything was just a big misunderstanding.

FIN

/closed